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  "If you don't mind me asking, how the hell did you end up with a guy like that?"

  She continued to stare out the window. "Screwing up my life—just something I'm good at. Zeke was just another bad mistake in a long string of fuckups." She sat up with energy, almost as if she'd just shaken off a cloud of depression. I wondered if she was heartbroken about Zeke. I hoped not.

  A beaded bracelet twirled around her thin wrist as she looked for a station. The only thing she found was a loud buzz, a religious station and a weather report.

  "My box of CDs is under the seat."

  She curled over and searched for the box. As she reached for it, the edge of her shirt slipped up to reveal her lower back and a string of stars tattooed around her hips. I had to remind myself to pay attention to the road. Not that there was much traffic or many impediments to worry about.

  "Ah ha." She popped her head back up, and her hand emerged with the box of licorice that had slipped beneath the seats on a fast stop. The box of CDs came out next. She lifted it onto the seat next to her and thumbed through the collection. She pulled out a Mariah Carey CD and held it up with a judgmental brow lift.

  "That one belongs to my girlfriend."

  "Thank god." She pushed it back into the box. "The Ramones. Now we're talking." She pulled the CD out and pushed it into the player. Then she ripped open the package of licorice whips and offered me one, before pulling one out for herself. She nibbled it. The red of the candy contrasted perfectly with the natural pink of her luscious lips.

  She took a bite and talked over the chunk in her mouth. "So, you've got a girlfriend who likes Mariah Carey. Let me guess—she's someone who likes to buy a new purse for every season and who thinks fun is a stuffy, formal dinner party with friends where they serve tiny portions of weird ingredients and laugh mockingly at the very idea of a double cheeseburger. Oh, and she has a white cat named Miffy that she only allows on one certain chair in her impeccably furnished apartment." She pulled off another bite of licorice and looked at me to confirm her guesses.

  "You could tell all that from one CD?"

  "Music preference speaks volumes." She laughed at her pun.

  "Well, Emma—"

  Denni interrupted. "Emma? Huh, I was thinking something more like Linda or Nancy. Don't know why. Continue."

  "Emma," I repeated, "is allergic to cats, so there's no Miffy or Rex, for that matter, because she keeps insisting her allergy also covers dogs and anything with fur. Self-diagnosis, of course. But she does have more purses than I have socks, and she likes the aforementioned stuffy parties. I, on the other hand, would rather have my eyes scratched out by an angry Miffy than sit through a dinner party with her equally stuffy friends. She's the daughter of a wealthy businessman, and somehow, I managed to get talked into working for the man. Although, managed isn't really a good word. I was desperate. I'd come out of college with a worthless economics degree, and aside from a riveting six month stint in the corporate office of a grocery chain—and yes, total sarcasm there—I needed to find a job or risk feeling like a miserable loser."

  "Yep, pretty much the scenario I was thinking. Except the working for the dad part. That sounds kind of depressing."

  Denni reached between her legs and hauled up her solidly stuffed backpack. She rummaged through the front pocket and pulled out a rubber band. She dropped the pack down and lifted her arms up to tie her hair back in a ponytail. It took several tries for her to sweep up the entire mass of silky hair, but once accomplished, I found myself focused on her long, smooth neck. Everything about her was mesmerizing.

  Completely unaware of the effect the innocent task of putting up her hair had had on me, she continued the conversation. "Do you like your job with the wealthy businessman who might someday be your dad-in-law?"

  "Hate my job."

  "So, you are still a miserable loser, only now you have a job to go along with the loserdom."

  "Well, I've never thought of it like that, but thanks so much for putting it in that context. Now I can go back to feeling glum about my life."

  "I firmly believe in dashing spirits whenever given the opportunity." She laughed. "No seriously, Luke, what would you rather be doing?"

  "If I'm completely honest with myself, I want to be a writer like my dad."

  She sat up enthusiastically. "Your dad was an author? What's his name?"

  "Graham Traynor."

  She pursed her lips in thought as if trying to decide if she'd heard of him.

  "He was kind of a mid-lister. He made enough to survive, and he'd get really excited if he saw his books on the spinning rack at the grocery store. Dad was always sure he had at least one blockbuster in him. But his big break never came. My mom grew tired of it all and left him when I was ten. She married a surgeon, who happens to be the golf partner of Emma's dad. Which is how I met her and now brings my whole life's story full circle. So what about you? Something tells me you've got one heck of a story to tell." I'd never found it so easy to talk to anyone in my life as Denni.

  She put her elbow on the edge of the car door and rested her arm along it. Her fingers were long and thin, and she had a turquoise ring on her pinky. It was hard not to take in every detail as if I was looking at the world's most beautiful piece of art. "Not too interesting, especially when I leave out the humiliating and embarrassing and just full-ass stupid parts. My mom was only a kid herself when she had me, and she wasn't the least bit interested in being a mother. So my grandmother stepped in to play the part. After my grandmother died, my mom tried to reconnect, to make up for some of the lost time. But I decided this time, I wasn't interested in being a daughter. As far as I was concerned, the only mom I knew had been buried in the Pine Hill Mortuary."

  "You sort of can't fault your mom too much if she was a young teenager at the time. Shit, I couldn't keep track of my shoes or math assignments at that age. Can't imagine trying to keep a kid safe and happy."

  Denni actually seemed to be considering my words. She sat silent, her long lashes fluttering as she watched the scenery float by. She perked up from her slight slouch when a sign for Redmond's Cave popped up along the highway. "Redmond's Cave, isn't that where people sit at the mouth of the cave and watch the bats fly out at dusk?"

  "Yep, I think that's the place." I'd gotten stuck behind a plodding hay truck and had finally gotten a chance to coast into the opposite lane and drive around it. The Ford kicked reluctantly into high gear as I sped around the truck. I cleared it and moved back into the correct lane.

  "Did you and your dad ever go watch the bats after your traditional hot dog stop?"

  I thought about all those trips along the highway and how often we'd pointed at the Redmond sign and promised to go watch the bats on the next trip. But it never happened. "No, we never took the time to do it. Sounds kind of lame that we didn't, considering how many times we passed through here."

  Denni shifted to the side and looked at me. "We should go watch the bats."

  "I'm sure it's an interesting sight, but Redmond's Cave is probably a good hour out of the way. I need to be at the cabin before dark. There aren't any lights leading up to it. I've got to hike in a mile or so to get to it."

  "Darn." Denni sat back against the seat with a bit of a pout on her lips, lips that I'd imagined kissing more than once.

  "Sorry about that. It does sound cool, but I don't want to travel the path to the cabin in the dark. It's been awhile since I've been there, and I'm not exactly a compass when it comes to sense of direction."

  Denni nodded, and we sat listening to the music for a few minutes.

  "Where do you call home?" I asked, and immediately regretted my prying question.

  "Anywhere my heart is, which, at the moment, is nowhere in particular. I wonder what kind of sound they make."

  I glanced over at her, confused. "Who?"

  "The bats. When they leave the cave. I guess you wouldn't be able to hear much over the flutter of those rubbery wings. I've heard the sky gets black with b
ats when they leave for the night's hunt."

  I was feeling not only like a heel but like a dork who refused to take any risks. Still, there was no way I was going to find Dad's cabin in the dark.

  "I'm sure my dad would have liked to see it. I'll bet it's amazing to watch."

  Denni lifted her knee up and rested her foot on the edge of the seat. Her smooth skin showed through all of the rips and tears on her jeans. "Did your dad have one of those bucket lists?"

  "Sort of. I mean, he didn't write the stuff down, but he knew there were things he wanted to finish and experience before—" I stopped just short of saying it. "He had always wanted to go to Rome and see the coliseum, so we traveled there last summer."

  "Very cool. Too bad he never got to see the bats."

  "Oh my gosh, you are good, like relentless good but good nonetheless. We'll go see the bats."

  She slid across the bench seat of the truck and threw her arms around my neck. Her soft lips pressed against my cheek. "I'm so excited."

  I was still reeling from the simple kiss on my cheek and the feeling of having her arms around me when she sat back with a satisfied smile. She didn't move back to the passenger's side but stayed right next to me, her thigh pressed tightly against mine and her shoulder rubbing against me. A sweet, flowery scent drifted up from her hair, and it made my head spin. She was a complete stranger, a beautiful, fun, energetic stranger and something told me scattering Dad's ashes wasn't going to be the only profound and memorable part of my trip to the cabin.

  Three

  My truck was heading away from my final destination point, Dad's cabin. The sunny scent of Denni's hair was stronger than ever as her head bobbed against my shoulder. She’d dozed off a few minutes after we made the decision to head to Redmond's Cave. How badly I wanted to throw my arm around her and hold her while she slept, breathing in her fragrance and listening to the soft, sweet sleeping sounds she made. But I kept both hands gripped on the wheel as if I was driving a winding mountain road instead of a straight, flat highway.

  I knew damn well I shouldn't have been on my way to a cave with bats, and I shouldn't have had an extraordinary girl sitting next to me, heck, even pressing against me. But, at the moment, I didn't give a damn about right or wrong. My dad would have loved this story, especially if he knew it was on the way to spread his ashes. He was the true romantic of the family, unlike my mom who was always logic and propriety and correct choices. They were both so different it was hard to see how they’d ever fallen in love in the first place. One thing was certain though, my dad was brokenhearted when Mom left him, but she'd hardly flicked a tissue across her eyes when their marriage ended for good.

  A country music station suddenly came in clearly through the fuzz on the radio, and the twang of a guitar woke Denni. She lifted her head from my shoulder, and I actually felt a pang of disappointment not to have her sleeping against me.

  Her bracelet dangled from her slim wrist as she stretched her arms out. "Are we almost there?"

  "About fifteen minutes, I'd say."

  She covered a yawn and then, without warning, she turned her body toward me and pressed her breasts against my arm. My physical reaction was instant, and I was now glad that I wasn't driving on a twisty mountain road. I swallowed hard, hoping to relieve some of the pressure her move had caused. Every muscle in my body was tense with wanting to touch her, and my cock was pressing against my fly. Never had I felt so fucking guilty and so damn thrilled in my life.

  Her small hand came to rest on my thigh as she propped her chin on my shoulder. I could feel the heat of her gaze on the side of my face. I had to concentrate on remembering how to drive.

  "You have a very nice profile." She reached up and ran her fingertip over my nose. "And your jaw is very manly." She continued her tactile assessment of my face by running her finger along the beard stubble on my jaw. Her fingernail lightly grazed my ear as she pushed my hair behind it. "Even your ears are perfect."

  I laughed but it was more to keep my self-control in check than anything having to do with humor. "My ears? I always wanted pointed Spock ears. And I just gave away my nerd secret by revealing that I'm a Star Trek fan. Or maybe my nerdiness was already apparent."

  Her warm breath tickled my ear when she laughed. And the notion that she was close enough for me to feel her breath on my skin made my pulse race.

  "You are nerdy but in a hot way. Thank you for taking me to see the bats." Her hand slid closer to my crotch. I gripped the steering wheel so hard I half expected it to crack in my hands.

  She lifted up higher in her seat and her breasts rubbed against my shoulder as she pressed her lips against my neck. The truck rolled over the raised dots separating the two lane highway. I pulled it back to one lane.

  My mind raced in every direction. In the last few months, I'd been unhappy in my relationship with Emma. I'd been waiting for things to improve. I'd told myself I was just in a slump and that my feelings for Emma hadn't peaked. I just needed some space from her. I'd been handing out a lot of excuses not to see her, like too much work and being busy taking care of my dad's stuff, just to give myself a break. But my feelings for her were still as flat as a dead man's EKG. Holy shit. I was my dad. He'd gone on for a good year thinking things would get better in his marriage. He had been convinced that if they just spent less time together romance would bloom again. But it never did. Of course, even with my feelings rolling up and down for Emma, I'd never considered cheating on her. But now I was being faced with a temptation that was just too damn hard to resist. I was miles from home, miles from Emma, miles from her dad, my boss, and it gave me a sense of freedom I hadn't felt in a long time.

  Denni seemed to sense my hesitation and cut short her heavy duty flirting. Her hand withdrew some, but she kept it placed on my leg. "Emma is a lucky woman. If I had someone like you, I wouldn't change one hair on your head and I'd thank my lucky stars every darn day. In fact, every time I thought of you, I'd stop and turn around three times and say lucky woman, lucky woman, lucky woman just not to jinx myself from losing you."

  I smiled at her words and thought about how often Emma had tried to change not only the hair on my head but my clothes and my reading habits and my food likes and dislikes. She had no idea that her constant quest to change me was one of the things that was slowly pushing me away.

  "I was thinking—" I knew exactly where I was heading with this and I knew it was really fucking wrong, but, suddenly, I didn't care about wrong. Especially if it felt right to me. "Since I'm not going to make it back to the cabin before dark, maybe we—I—should rent a motel room and just stay the night in Redmond. Then I can get an early start tomorrow." I looked at her as she peered up at me with those amazing hazel eyes. "You could stay too. Unless you have some place you need to be. Or I could get you your own room. I mean, I don't want to make the assumption—"

  Denni lifted her face to mine and kissed me. The truck bumped and rattled as I pulled off to the side of the road. The second I threw the truck into park, Denni climbed over my lap and straddled me. My hands swept around her and beneath her shirt. Her skin was as smooth as I'd expected and her lips were the sweetest I'd ever tasted. My tongue swept over them and into her mouth, deepening the kiss. All the while, she writhed over me, rubbing her crotch over my erection. There was no rational reasoning for what I was doing except that she was fucking irresistible. My hands smoothed over her back as I lifted my hips to increase the friction between us. My cock was pushing hard against the fly of my jeans, begging to be let free.

  "Luke," she whispered against my mouth, "I want to fuck."

  "Hell yeah. Me too," I reached between us and started fumbling with the button on her jeans.

  "Do you have any protection?" she asked through a low, erotic moan.

  The question was a splash of cold water. I lowered my hands but could still feel my heart pounding in my chest. I looked up into her face. It was breathtaking. I couldn't remember ever wanting a woman as badly as I wanted her
. It was a traitorous thought, considering my long term relationship, but it was the truth. "I don't carry anything because—Emma and I have been together for a long time."

  She traced the cleft in my chin with her finger. "Maybe we can find a store or something. Unless you're rethinking this."

  "No. Yeah. No. A store. Redmond is a small town, but hey—they probably have sex there, occasionally." I shook my head. "God, I sound like an idiot."

  "No, you don't. And if you change your mind, I understand." She cuddled closer to me and made sure to rub her crotch along my cock, which was still hard as steel, as she kissed me. "But just so you know, I really want you."

  "You do? You do. Right. Shit. Me too. Let's drive into town." I was like a high school kid who'd just found out that the hottest girl in school wanted him.

  Denni slid off my lap and planted herself right next to me. It took another few miles of driving for my heart rate, pulse and all my other parts to relax back to normal. Or as close to normal as I could get with Denni sitting next to me.

  "By the way," Denni's voice drifted in harmony with the country ballad strumming though my truck speakers. "I don't have any place to be. You mentioned that when you brought up the motel room. The truth is, I don't have any home or anyone waiting for me anywhere. I stuck with that asshole Zeke mostly because it beat being completely alone." She dropped her face and fidgeted with the bracelet on her wrist. "But lately, he was drinking too much, so alone and homeless was a much better option."

  "I'm having a hard time understanding how a girl who has absolutely everything going for her ended up alone and without a home."

  She still hadn’t taken her focus off the bracelet, and I worried I'd stepped over the line on prying into her life. Her arm rubbed against mine as she shrugged her shoulders. "After my grandmother died, I just sort of ended up with nothing. She didn't own much and she was in debt to the bank. A friend took me in for awhile, but her parents, who were nothing but kind and supportive, had some financial problems of their own. So I left town before I graduated. I was a good student too, at least until my grandmother died and my life swirled into a big hot mess.”